Kelly Clarkson is piecing together the meaning of life, but she knows it doesn’t involve what people think about her weight.
“They shame you for it. Same thing happened with Miranda Lambert—I had dinner with her and we were talking about that. She was like, ‘Should I gain? Should I lose?” Clarkson told Redbook. “But no one actually cares about your health. They just care about aesthetics.”
However, Clarkson’s aesthetics send a sign. “It’s when I’m fat that I’m happy. People think, ‘Oh, there’s something wrong with her. She’s putting on weight.’ I’m like, ‘Oh, no! I’m sorry, but that represents happiness in my emotional world,'” she told the magazine. “For me, when I’m skinny is usually when I’m not doing well.”
Meanwhile, she finds some of her bliss in her husband of four years, Brandon Blackstock. According to the songstress, they’re quite, ahem, busy in the bedroom.
“When I met Brandon, I wasn’t looking for a friend. I have a lot of great friends! I was looking for a lover,” the star said. “I had never found someone I was truly passionate about, who I wanted to stay in bed with all day. The fact that I did, well…I was going to latch on and take advantage of that.”
Read the full interview in Redbook’s December/January 2018 issue on newsstands November 21.